Lets give to the ones who need it

With Christmas coming we never realize how many children have to spend their holidays in the hospital. A wonderful couple Dean and Megan Stevens have set up a donation program to give toys to them. I love these programs because they hit me hard especially knowing how these families feel not being home during these times. For whoever wants to give back to those who need it this is a great way to make those children feel special. I can only imagine their faces when they get a present to open on Christmas Day!
Brighten up for the Kids is a program that they created in 2010 to give to Akron's Children Hospital in Mahoning Valley.
All donations to be dropped off at Youngstown Cycle Supply on Market Street. They will be collecting till Dec 22nd.
Thank you all for your enormous hearts and love!

One day at a time

Chris and I continue to take one day at a time. With Christmas right around the corner, I have a pit in my stomach as each day it comes near but I know Liam would want us to enjoy the season as if he was here! My heart continues to ache as each moment passes and I know that it will never go away. But I also now it's there to remind me of him until I get to see him again someday.
Going to the site where he is laid to rest is a place of peace that we visit everyday. So many come to visit and bring him new things and I am so very blessed that everyone loves him so much. Writing my blog was one of the best decisions I have made. Not only to help me cope with my feelings but to have all of you get to know him and love him so much. Our journey had so many ups and downs but everyday he was here with us on earth was the best days of my life. I am still not able to go back and read each post and relive it again but knowing its there to capture his life was a blessing in its own. I hope his life will help give comfort to someone else going through similar situations with a congenital heart defect or even someone else who has lost a child or even bring us all back to realize what is important in life. I never realized how many others have lost a child. My heart breaks for all of them since knowing how they feel. But they would probably all agree when I say.... Even though he is not here with us and I don't get to see him each day and watch him grow. I am still a mother to a beautiful baby boy. Even when Chris and I decide to try again to have more children he will always be our first and they will know everything about their big brother. If anyone asks if we have children I will always say yes. I never want to shut down and pretend none of it happened. I would do it all over again if I could.
Today Chris and are setting up a Christmas tree at Liam's site so he can experience the joy of this time of year. I also feel like it will remind Chris and I what Christmas is truly about.
Thank you to all that gives Chris and I the strength to get through our days.


This was posted on my blog and I love it. Thank you to whoever sent it. These are the things that help me cope. Love from all of you and love from our God above!!

What makes a Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother And I know I heard him say.
A Mother has a baby This we know is true.'
But God, can you be a Mother When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can, He replied With confidence in His voice
I give many women babies When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this, God I want my baby here
He took a breath and cleared His throat And then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile With other children and say:
"We go to earth to learn our lessons Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom Who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quickly My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek And whisper in her ear.
"Mommy don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see my dear sweet one Your children are ok
Your babies are here in My home And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me Until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home They'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize
You are a Mother until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day And you know you're the best one!



Posted by Anonymous to Our Superhero's Journey at November 24, 2012 3:44 AM

For my PCTU GIRLS.

To all my PCTU girls,
I miss you all terribly. For three months I learned to love each and everyone one of you. You all brought different things to my life. If it was getting some amazing advice from you all, or catching up on our celebrity gossip, or eating food together, or reading Liam books, making crafts, or just getting to know all of you and you all getting to know us. I am forever blessed to have had those moments. I know my sweet angel above is watching over all of you as well. Liam knew you all as family as much as we do. You are all apart of the Sugar/Mirone clan forever.
Chris and I returned home from a quick getaway and we received a card from all of you and it brought tears to my eyes. I love you girls so much and I will never forget any of you.
Chris and I would love to make a trip back to see all of you soon.
Much love from me to you!!

Every day is a challenge

Everyday is a challenge. Not a second goes by where I do not think of my baby boy. From the moment my eyes open in the morning until my eyes close at night. I still continue to think about him while I sleep. Sometimes I feel so connected to him after a nights rest. Like he was dancing with us in our dreams. Every night I ask my little solider to rest his head between Chris and I and continue to comfort us. Knowing that he is with us no matter where we are and what we are doing also gives me peace.
His strength in his short life, knowing all that he endured, helps Chris and I fight through our challenges. Life will never be the same. But having conceived a child that was destined to be a superhero and a gorgeous angel gives me strength. I am so blessed to know you all love him as much as we do.
The firsts of it all without him is hard. Yesterday he would have been three months. It's crazy how the 27th of each month has so much more meaning. Or how crazy it is that life it's self has so much meaning.
Christmas will be another hard challenge but I thank god everyday for our support from our family and friends and to all of you I have never met. You all continue to give us the strength to get through another day
I still continue to live one day at a time. Always new moments or conversations that wear me down but it's all about the power of prayer. Without that I would be left with nothing. We believe in heaven and angels for a reason and I have a very special one with me all the time.
Chris and I escaped the cold weather in Ohio for a few days and came down south to enjoy the sun and each other. It was a much needed getaway. I have felt guilty throughout the trip with leaving home after just getting back after three months of living in Michigan and that I should not be enjoying myself after losing Liam. But he sends me little signs letting me know its ok and I am with you. People like to call them Godwinks. I will share a few pictures from our trip, you will see what I mean. Almost like little balls of light or as what I say my precious angel just hanging out with us. Love to all xoxo

Born and raised

I may have been born and raised a Buckeye fan but my heart is in Ann Arbor.....
GO BLUE!!!!! For Liam.

Thankful

Today I am thankful for the 78 days that I got to spend with the most amazing little boy. He has made me a better person. I am also thankful for the wonderful support from our family and friends and to all of you that have shown so much love to us. Some of you I do not even know but just having all of you to be right along side of us , means so much. The love is overwhelming and gives us comfort.
Happy Thanksgiving from the Sugar's I hope you all spent it with the ones you love the most. I know my sweet angel was with us all today. He is missed dearly.

Mourning over my son

Has I am in bed tonight mourning over the loss of my son, all i can think of is blogging my thoughts to help me cope. I guess its like writing a journal of my feelings, which I have done since day 1. Over the last few days, I have kept myself very busy. Doing things or talking to people from the moment I wake up to the time I lay me head on my pillow keeps me together. Falling asleep from exhaustion is easier then laying in bed crying yourself to sleep. Being within my own thoughts is my downfall where I continue to miss him and grieve for him. Which I know he is looking down On me saying Mommy, please don't cry, I am safe here with Jesus. I want to be selfish and wish he was here with me. I want to experience the sleepless nights caused by him crying instead of the ones with thoughts of sadness. I want to feel the annoyance of going somewhere and having to take almost your house to accommodate his every need. I want people to meet him and get to see him grow up. Those are the things I dream of.
As I was on the couch tonight I continued to feel a pit in my stomach growing larger and larger until the tears started coming and all I could do was let them come and pray.
I miss him more then I could tell all of you. I know it will always be like this. Our lives are forever changed. Chris and I have changed. Little things don't matter anymore. Realizing what makes us happy and not taking for granted the things we have instead of wanting things we do not need or worrying over things that are not important. It puts our lives in perspective and we know what counts.
I live moment by moment until we see him again.
Thank you Dr. Marx-Armille for making this. I love it for always! Xoxo