What hurts the most....

Last night I went to The Band Perry and Rascal Flatts concert with some of my favorite people. We had so much fun. It's really nice to be able to go places and have a smile on your face, knowing in your heart that you do things like this to make your son proud of you. That's what we did. But what is a Rascal Flatts concert, great people and alcohol without a few tears being shed. That's ok too. Liam watches over me and says that's ok too mom. For those of you who know Rascal Flatts, you know they put on an awesome concert and their lyrics are so touching.
Especially the song, What Hurts the Most.....
For those who don't know it, I would like to share them with you.
For those who have lost someone, you will feel these words like they are your anthem... I do

WHAT HURTS THE MOST
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

I love you all! Have a great weekend, that's ok too. If you feel sad just think of the ones we have lost and make them proud of us. But a good cry is good too. Trust me I know.

February is Heart Awareness

Liam was born with a very rare congenital heart defect. His prognosis was poor but we chose to fight for him. He was born Aug 27th and he fought hard until his very last breath. We were blessed to have him for 78 wonderful, amazing days. All the Tears, all the heartache was worth it, it still continues to be worth it. I met my hero the day he was born. When Chris and I made that decision to go forth with the pregnancy and delivery that amazing little boy, I learned and experienced more then anyone should in their lifetime. But I never realized how many parents go through the same thing. Until you see it with your own eyes, or others reach out to you and give their own experiences. You never hear much about Congenital Heart Defects while growing up until it becomes your life, your child's life. Now I want to learn, I want to have the knowledge. I want to help bring awareness.
February is Heart Awareness Month, and Feb 7th thru Feb 14 is Congenital Heart Awareness Week. Each year 1,000,000 babies are born with a heart defect worldwide, 100,000 of them will not survive till their first birthdays. I never thought this would happen in my life, but it has, and I am here now to help spread the word.
This month when you wear red remember those children that are fighting for their lives, or those that have their angel wings.
Thank you for supporting us and continuing to do so. Faith, Family, and Friends is what helps us conquer each day. I read this recently and I instantly fell in love with it.... Courage is fear, with prayers.

Lets do something fun, for all of you who have superhero bracelets or superhero journey t-shirts lets wear them proudly throughout the month. For those of you who do not, wear something that is red. Not only for Liam but for so many other families needing prayers and strength to get through this journey called life.

Xoxo