Oliver Kent Sugar

I don't know how to put into words what I need to say. But when I think about, there is nothing to say. 

All I know is I have felt the comfort of prayer and the strength it gives you to complete a simple task of just getting out of bed in the morning.   

And Chris and I and our families need to feel that prayer now more then ever.  And I know there are so many powerful prayer warriors out there and I am reaching out today for those prayers. 

Oliver Kent Sugar was born Friday, February 28, 2014 at 4:57pm. Weighing in at 5 ounces and 

7 1/2 inches long.  He was so perfect with 10 fingers and 10 toes with a perfect nose and beautiful lips.  He had a resemblance of his big brother Liam which we will cherish for eternity. 

Oliver unfortunately passed away due to a cord accident and because of it our worlds again have been turned upset down.

Our only peace is knowing our two perfect little boys are together spending eternity with each other.

There is always a rainbow after a storm

Almost two years ago, I started this blog to tell the story of Liam's journey.  Starting from his devastating diagnoses of his congenital heart defect to Chris and I trying to survive after losing him.   It's been two years of love, life, laughter, memories, tears, heartache, and mourning.   

Writing this blog was meant for a way for me to express my emotions on paper, kind of like a journal and to Also keep family and friends back home up to date with Liam.   I never would have imagined his journey would turn into something so big.  Even today, two years later I am still in awe of all the people that fell in love with him.  The amount of people who read his journey, Who followed his life and his passing warms my heart.   Having people tell me that they prayed with us, smiled with us and cried with us and of course love Liam and everything he stands for, Means everything to Chris and I. It continues to keep his memory alive and I am grateful.  Those are the moments that continue to keep Chris and I pushing forward. I thank all of you for that. 

Mourning is the hardest part of a humans life. Loss of a loved one breaks us.   The heartache never goes away.  The pain might not be physically apparent to others but if they could see the inside of someone who has experienced such loss they would know

Grieving has a mask.  A mask needed to function in daily life. But Faith in God and knowing he is always with us, Carrying, walking us through the journey of life is that mask.  That mask that hides our pain but shows our strength.  

The Lord God will wipe away all tears

                      Isaiah 25.8 

 I am writing this post today because I have amazing news to share.  

For those of you that know and for the others that don't. God has blessed Chris and I with an additional path.  Liam is going to be a big brother.  

  I am 18 weeks pregnant and yesterday was my anatomy scan and it went very well. 

All major organs look good.  Heart has four chambers and they saw all that was needed to be seen.  I will still need to be seen by a cardiologist for further testing to be sure at the end of this month but knowing this so far has been an answer to our prayers.  Our fears have lifted and we are ready to share it with the world. 

A baby to be born around July 7, one that will have the most amazing angel to watch over. Our family continues to grow and our love expands from heaven to earth for both our children. 

There is always a rainbow after a storm. 

                  And God is good!!  

 P.s.   ITS A BOY!!!!!!!!