Liam's Garden

One of my dearest friends from High School Brent put together a fundraiser to create a Memorial Garden for Liam in Chris and I's backyard.  A place where Chris and I can go to be at peace with our memories of our son.  Brent and his men where here everyday to finish the project before Liam's birthday. They worked very hard and gave their precious time and energy to create a special place that we love. 

 A beautiful garden with trees, flowers, bushes, rocks and a gorgeous water feature that makes the most comforting sound.  Each bush, tree, plant etc. designed to have a meaning of life, purity and more. Each piece blooms white in the spring reflecting to me the whiteness of the angels. A new sidewalk and steps make the garden even more gorgeous.  

They also placed Liam's bench that was given to us from Chris's work friends and a Windchime given to us by Amy and her sweet friends to help emphasize the meaning and the life of Liam Kent Sugar.  

We want to thank all of you who donated and gave your hard earned money to help this garden fall into place. There is so much meaning and love that shines here and thanks to you, Chris and I will have it forever. Chris and I want to thank Brad and Joe, for working so hard with the labor and the gorgeous design. 

And of course a special thank you to Brent. You made all of this happen, you fell in love with Liam and wanted to give Chris and I this place to reflect. We are forever grateful and blessed to have you in our lives. I cannot tell you how much we are thankful or how much we love you.  Liam's life will continue to bloom as we watch it grow because of you. My dearest Big Bear. You are one of a kind. 

Happy 1st Birthday

As we celebrated Liam's birthday, we shed lots of tears but also we shared our love. Our love for him and what he meant to all of us.  

We began our birthday party with a dinner and then went to his resting place where I asked everyone to write a special note of what they would say to Liam as we attached them to red, yellow and blue balloons. As we watched them go to the heavens we remembered him, we cried for him, and we prayed for him. Flowers were brought from all of us and from others making his site shine. We gathered to our house for cake and ice cream. Liam had his cake and we sang Happy Birthday to him. As we sang I was so overwhelmed, it was truly like we were singing with the angels.  He was with us through it all and so was Our God.  I prayed for it. 

My dad took a picture that proved he was with us. I light so bright it was breathtaking.   Thank you Lord for what you have given us, you have shown us that Liam and you are always here. 

Chris and I both agree that this day was one of our hardest. We have had so many but not having what we wish we had makes this journey unbearable. We continue to mourn, cry, remember, and smile and above all else, we keep our faith. 

I asked all of you to wish Liam a Happy birthday on this day and Chris and I are overwhelmed with all of the love and wishes you sent to him on his day.  You all help us get out of bed each day and face a new day. Liam is one special little boy to have touched not only us but all of you. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  He had a birthday full of love and that's all I could have ever asked  

Xoxox

1 year

This is it.... The week that my mind and heart have achingly known was approaching. Liam's 1st birthday. 

August 27th, 2012 at 9:57 my world was changed forever.  Chris and I met our strong, beautiful little boy.  In those first few moments I heard his one and only cry that will forever be burned in my ears and the sight of a scar-free little boy that will be tattooed into my eyes until I take my last breath on this earth.  How one little person can make you love beyond words. How the sight of him shows you the true meaning of what this life is about. 

 God, please give me the strength to do this, carry us through this life and especially these next few days as we long to hold him, kiss him, see what he would look like and watch him grow with life and personality, stand by us as we remember the bravest, awe inspiring gift you have given us.  

The hole, the ache, the heaviness my heart feels daily sometimes becomes so overwhelming tears just flow and on others I function because I have my faith, Chris and Parker and our family, friends, and also I can feel and see the presence of Liam all day, everyday. Seeing reflections of light, rainbows, a red cardinal that shows up regularly, the warmth of the sun, stars, our beautiful garden, my list of GodWinks are endless. This is how I know he is never far away. 

This year has been full of tears, sorrow, mourning, and smiles, laughter and memories. 

We have been given a special gift in Liam. How I wish things were different, how I wish I could be planning a huge birthday party, and man would I give him the biggest birthday cake that I could find, and yea, I would allow him to be covered in it too. Just the thought makes me smile and tears fill my eyes. 

The firsts are the hardest I know, the firsts of him and what I am missing is what I crave, what I dream of.  

We are having a birthday party for him the best way we know.  To celebrate his life and I will continue to have one every year on his day. August 27th is his. The day we got  to meet our very own Superhero. 

All I ask from you is On Tuesday wish him a very Happy birthday.  I know the love from all of you runs deep for him.  I want him to know he is loved and missed and that he will never be forgotten. 

(Oh yea, I have asked Corey Monteith aka Finn Hudson from Glee to sing Happy Birthday to him as he is surrounded by all of our loved ones that have gone before us.  Now that's a sight I can't wait to see!!!!!!)